January 2012
Rest In Peace Lola Pet
We will miss you dearly but I know you’re in a better place. Please watch over us in Heaven.
Mind Blowing.
Probably not in it’s usual context that this phrase is used, but still very appropriate.
My life since I’ve been here has been defined by you. You caught me by surprise and the next thing I know I’m giving you everything… I let you define me. Despite how torn, confused, or guilty I felt- I still gave you everything because you gave me so much. You enabled me to feel a...
Love.
No, I’ve never been in love nor have I ever really understood or came close to feeling how it should feel when someone says “I Love You”… not until this weekend.
So yes people, I fell in love this weekend. I fell in love with Isang Bansa in a way that I never have before…all because of Retreat.
…I’m having the worst retreat withdrawals right now =(
So far so good...
The first week of 2nd semester…check! (well…sorta)
It’s been such a damn good week I’m kind of mind blown. It could be a change in mindset for me or something but whatever the reason may be…I’m just going to ride out these good vibes as long as I can.
Since being back in LA, I’ve managed to home cook all but two of my meals from scratch and workout 4...
Unfortunate.
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Disappointment
Probably one of the brutalist words in the dictionary if you ask me. Since I declared my major I always thought my parents were okay with it…until now. I am 2 psych classes and 15 units away from graduation and there I sat across from my dad as he questioned why I didn’t choose business or comm- at least those majors have futures.
Fighting back tears I didn’t know what to say...
Tempted
to just go all the fuck out these next 5 months- be all “bad ass” and shit. Change the wardrobe, the make up, get a few more piercings, finally get tatted…all that shit. Find a bad ass boy friend with a motorcycle. Start a band. Experiment a little. Get fucked up every other day. You know, just throw away the old life and start over.
Ok hella just joking with that last part...
